Is this what depression is?

Sorry about missing a post last week and being late this week. I am posting twice this week.

I wrote this one on September 19, 2010. I was in a long-distance relationship at the time. After spending almost 3 months with him, we were back in the real world and struggling to keep our relationship afloat. This was my first bout of extreme depression symptoms.

I can’t explain this,

Is this what depression is?

I thought a person was supposed to overeat,

But I need to force myself.

I thought a person was supposed to oversleep,

But I find myself up all night long.

He is so far away, and I miss him so much

I don’t want to go on until he comes home.

Though even then he won’t be by my side

I never wanted this because I knew

I’m not strong enough to be alone

When I know I shouldn’t be.

A man is supposed to be next to his women

To hold her and comfort her

To chase away the nightmares and

 To kiss away the tears and fears.

But when he is away the nightmares

Are more defined and the fears

Grow more intense by the second

I want to see him in my future

Just as I did before

But when he is not in my present

The future grows dim.

I am hungry and I am tired

I am sad and I am mad

I want to eat without choking on my food

I want to go to bed before 2 am

I want to go a day dry eyed

I want to stop snapping at people all the time.

Just come home

Soon, safe and sound

I don’t want to feel this way and

I want to stop asking myself

Is this what depression is?