You Meet Him Soon

Prompt: Give advice to your younger self. I chose to talk to myself at 19 years old. I was a freshman in collage. I just walked away from an emotionally abusive relationship into the arms of a boy that didn’t become my savior. I didn’t know it then, but I was only months away from meeting my husband.

Dear Katie,

He is coming. You will meet him soon. And no, it’s not who you would ever think you would wind up with.

Adam has hurt you. I know that is one thing you always say is that he never hit you. But he does hurt you in other ways. Trust me when I tell you that what he says isn’t true. If he was really proud of you, he wouldn’t have told you to leave school. If he really respected you, he would give you the time to study that you need. If he really wanted you to succeed, he would wait for you. If he really loved you, he would be able to see what you need as well. If he loved you, he would know that you didn’t need to show it through sex alone.

I know you feel guilty about what you have done. And it only made it worse that Nick didn’t become a knight in disguise for you. Which makes the feelings you develop for him even worse. In his own way he is also using you. I would tell you to run, but I know how much you feel like you need him. Trust me, this time with him now will make you more sympathetic to friends later when they go through the same thing.

But your husband is coming. You will meet him within a year. The best part, and the worst part, is that you won’t be together for another five years after that. He is truly your best friend. He is here to protect you, even from yourself. Your dark days are bearable, and your happy days are extraordinary. He is smart, funny, protective, strong and loving. More than you have ever known. I won’t tell you who he is, because if I do it will just disappoint you that you can’t have him sooner. Trust me, he is worth the wait.

Stay strong. You will get through this. You will get over those to come too. Even staying friends with some of them. Good luck, I will be here when you get here.

Forever, Katie